So, I told you guys that Kayla and I share a 3rd hour class together right? It's a spanish class with a teacher that is from colombia. I'm going to be frank: he is perhaps the most socially inept person I've ever met. He's actually quite popular in our school, but for the wrong reasons. Did I mention he's metro? He's rather metro. Either way, yesterday in class, we were assigned to do team projects with just 2 people. He chose who we were partnered with. With me, he chose Kayla. I asked him why, and he went on this speech on how a brother and sister should be close and love each other and blah, blah, blah... He started speaking in thick spanish. Embarrising, yes?
You have to understand, Kayla and I have this unspoken agreement in which we avoid each other at school as much as possible. This is just one of those things we've always followed. It's pretty much an issue of "save family for home, save friends for school." Now, I didn't mind too much that he stuck us together for a weeklong project. I can handle that easily. But it's what he did today that pissed me off. He rearranged the seating chart. Now, I don't really know if he meant to do this, but he stuck me and kayla right next to each other. The rest of the semester is going to be awkward in that class.
Today, I got home from wrestling practice (with kayla, of course) totally wiped out. I told her that I was tired, and was going to go take a nap. She said that she was tired too, so I asked her if she'd like to sleep in my room. She said yes. We locked my room, but we also locked hers beforehand to not raise suspicion. We spent most of the time just snuggling. She told me she loved me (this isn't the first time), and I asked her when she first realized this. I was expecting her to say AFTER me, but as it turns out, she actually said it was a little before she went out with Greg. Some of you are probably thinking right now what came into my mind as she said that.
"Why did you go out with him then?"
"I felt that maybe if I went out with him, that I'd forget about you."
"Is that why you went out with him for 3 weeks?"
"Kinda. Why do you ask?"
"Seemed kinda long for a relationship considering you were involved." She punched me in the arm. Not hard, but still enough to show she was offended.
I got back on topic. "Still, why did you cry when he broke up with you?"
I felt her hold me tighter. "It's because I felt that he was the last of my sanity. Even when I was with him, I was thinking about you. When he broke up with me, I went into despair because I thought I had lost my sanity. Alex, that's why I quit crying when you came for me. I came to realize it was you I wanted. You complete me, alex." She kissed me after that. A little cheesy, yes, but I didn't care at the time.
I told her when and how I came to start thinking about her. She laughed. She told me that if I had just told her from the beginning, that would have saved a lot of time (I'll go ahead and mark this a win counter for anon). We didn't really end up sleeping, but it was just something that I was glad we talked about. Still, something bothered me. Will she get bored with me like she did every other boyfriend (don't like using this word to describe myself)? I hope that she won't. It'd probably be for the better, but I still can't even begin to imagine how hurt I would be. But what it comes down to is that I want her to be happy. Even if that means that I can't be in the picture.
Just thought I'd mention this, kayla and I both have school off tomorrow and friday. We will be alone most likely. I don't plan on anything happening, but that doesn't mean that I don't think it will happen. any thoughts?