Name: Alex 2007-11-03 16:11
Have you ever had that feeling like your world had come to an end? I mean, like your entire world has just been launched at the sun while your on it, and there's nothing you can do to stop it? It's that moment in your life that your innocence is stolen from you, or if it's already been taken, then what's left has been raped. Yeah, I had one of those moments yesterday.
I got home yesterday much earlier than usual on account of no practice. I already knew that I wasn't going to be able to talk much with Kayla, because I had promised (I look at it as being more of "tricked") a friend that I would go with him to a trivia contest. Still, I decided I was going to try and enjoy my afternoon, so I sat down on the couch and started watching TV. Immediately after I sat down, though, Jake walked into the room and sat right next to me. He let out a heavy sigh and said, "Alex; we need to talk."
Right about now, I thinking to myself 'aw crap, he's angry at me. Alright, what did I do this time?'
"Alright, what about?"
"It's about Kayla." I felt my heart sink. I was doing my best not to jump to conclusions, but I was still freaking out on the inside. I already knew what direction this conversation was going.
"What about Kayla?" I asked.
"Well, it's just that you to seem really close. Why is that?
"So what if Kayla and I are close? I've also always thought of you and I as close, too. What of it?"
"Well it's just that I've noticed that you and Kayla have just been hanging out a lot recently. I thought it was kind of... odd."
"How could you know we've been hanging out? I mean, you're hardly around as it is."
"I don't need to be around to know." As it was, this comment struck me as odd. I knew right then that he was playing games with me.
"What's that suppossed to mean?"
"Tell me Alex, what do you think of Kayla?"
"She's alright, I guess." I did a good job of not showing it, but he was beginning to piss me off.
"Is that really what you think of her? I mean, you seem to like her more than that."
"Get to your point."
"You love her, don't you?" I felt like missinterpreting it.
"Yeah, I love her. Don't you?"
"Let me rephrase that; you're IN love with her aren't you?" This blow struck me hard.
"What!? Dude, what the hell! This is our sister we're talking about! That's just gross!"
"You say that, but you and I both know it's true."
"Listen, I don't know what's running through your mind, but that's just sick. Keep that kinda thing to yourself." He punched me in the arm after this.
"You know, that's probably the same thing I should be saying to you."
Right then I knew what he was getting at, but I still did my best to play dumb. "What are you talking about."
He smiled, and uttered one word (or 2... I still don't know). "4chan"
I just about shit a brick right then and there. That's right; He's been reading my threads. He knew this entire time what's been going on because I actually told him. Up until that moment, I didn't even know that he knew about this website, but as it turns out, he's been a 4channer longer than me. He kept on talking.
"You know, I'm still kinda offended that you'd be willing to tell the world your relation with Kayla, yet not even talk to me about it."
"I tell 4chan about it because they can't directly affect my life!" This is kind of a lie, only because some of you have actually given good advice.
"You know, Alex, the thing about being Anonymous that though they don't know who you are, you don't know who they are."
"So what now Jake? What are you going to do? Are you going to tell Kayla? Are you going to stop me from posting? Are you going to talk to mom and dad?"
He let out a small laugh. "Ya know, I considered doing all of those. But no. I've decided I'm not going do any of that. On one condition, that is.
"What?"
"You have to keep me and them informed of what is going on."
"I can understand telling you, but why them?"
"Because it's only fair. You told them the beginning, you might as well tell them the end. I won't make you, but I'm also going to suggest that you tell Kayla that I know. I won't tell her, but only because she didn't tell me. I don't mind what you two are doing. I do think it's unethical, but not enough for me to really intervene. I just want you to know that I know. I couldn't play dumb forever, you know."
I had no choice but to agree. He had all the cards, and I had none. I did, however, make him promise to stay off my threads, but I already know he's not going to.
The worst part is that I know that he's reading this right now. So I'm gonna go ahead and make a small shout out to jake and say, "You are a dick". I also managed to find out that some of the fake alex postings (including the one that was entirely spanish) were him. I'm going to go ahead and let you guys know right now that I did not enjoy making this thread. I've never felt that anger translates well for me, and frankly, I didn't like talking about it. Either way, let this be a lesson to all of you that you shouldn't post personal information on the internet, even if it's just your first name. I do not regret my decision with kayla, and I do not regret that I posted it on 4chan (well, maybe a little). However, the thing I do regret is using names. I will continue using names, seeing as it can't be undone, however, I won't introduce anyone else with names. Everyone besides my siblings will be anon.
I got home yesterday much earlier than usual on account of no practice. I already knew that I wasn't going to be able to talk much with Kayla, because I had promised (I look at it as being more of "tricked") a friend that I would go with him to a trivia contest. Still, I decided I was going to try and enjoy my afternoon, so I sat down on the couch and started watching TV. Immediately after I sat down, though, Jake walked into the room and sat right next to me. He let out a heavy sigh and said, "Alex; we need to talk."
Right about now, I thinking to myself 'aw crap, he's angry at me. Alright, what did I do this time?'
"Alright, what about?"
"It's about Kayla." I felt my heart sink. I was doing my best not to jump to conclusions, but I was still freaking out on the inside. I already knew what direction this conversation was going.
"What about Kayla?" I asked.
"Well, it's just that you to seem really close. Why is that?
"So what if Kayla and I are close? I've also always thought of you and I as close, too. What of it?"
"Well it's just that I've noticed that you and Kayla have just been hanging out a lot recently. I thought it was kind of... odd."
"How could you know we've been hanging out? I mean, you're hardly around as it is."
"I don't need to be around to know." As it was, this comment struck me as odd. I knew right then that he was playing games with me.
"What's that suppossed to mean?"
"Tell me Alex, what do you think of Kayla?"
"She's alright, I guess." I did a good job of not showing it, but he was beginning to piss me off.
"Is that really what you think of her? I mean, you seem to like her more than that."
"Get to your point."
"You love her, don't you?" I felt like missinterpreting it.
"Yeah, I love her. Don't you?"
"Let me rephrase that; you're IN love with her aren't you?" This blow struck me hard.
"What!? Dude, what the hell! This is our sister we're talking about! That's just gross!"
"You say that, but you and I both know it's true."
"Listen, I don't know what's running through your mind, but that's just sick. Keep that kinda thing to yourself." He punched me in the arm after this.
"You know, that's probably the same thing I should be saying to you."
Right then I knew what he was getting at, but I still did my best to play dumb. "What are you talking about."
He smiled, and uttered one word (or 2... I still don't know). "4chan"
I just about shit a brick right then and there. That's right; He's been reading my threads. He knew this entire time what's been going on because I actually told him. Up until that moment, I didn't even know that he knew about this website, but as it turns out, he's been a 4channer longer than me. He kept on talking.
"You know, I'm still kinda offended that you'd be willing to tell the world your relation with Kayla, yet not even talk to me about it."
"I tell 4chan about it because they can't directly affect my life!" This is kind of a lie, only because some of you have actually given good advice.
"You know, Alex, the thing about being Anonymous that though they don't know who you are, you don't know who they are."
"So what now Jake? What are you going to do? Are you going to tell Kayla? Are you going to stop me from posting? Are you going to talk to mom and dad?"
He let out a small laugh. "Ya know, I considered doing all of those. But no. I've decided I'm not going do any of that. On one condition, that is.
"What?"
"You have to keep me and them informed of what is going on."
"I can understand telling you, but why them?"
"Because it's only fair. You told them the beginning, you might as well tell them the end. I won't make you, but I'm also going to suggest that you tell Kayla that I know. I won't tell her, but only because she didn't tell me. I don't mind what you two are doing. I do think it's unethical, but not enough for me to really intervene. I just want you to know that I know. I couldn't play dumb forever, you know."
I had no choice but to agree. He had all the cards, and I had none. I did, however, make him promise to stay off my threads, but I already know he's not going to.
The worst part is that I know that he's reading this right now. So I'm gonna go ahead and make a small shout out to jake and say, "You are a dick". I also managed to find out that some of the fake alex postings (including the one that was entirely spanish) were him. I'm going to go ahead and let you guys know right now that I did not enjoy making this thread. I've never felt that anger translates well for me, and frankly, I didn't like talking about it. Either way, let this be a lesson to all of you that you shouldn't post personal information on the internet, even if it's just your first name. I do not regret my decision with kayla, and I do not regret that I posted it on 4chan (well, maybe a little). However, the thing I do regret is using names. I will continue using names, seeing as it can't be undone, however, I won't introduce anyone else with names. Everyone besides my siblings will be anon.