I got kicked out of class.....

I go to art school, and i'm taking a 2-D design class that is driving me insane. I can't do anything in the class, and the professor is fucking anal as hell. Today I turned in a shitty assignment, and absolutely hated it, so I was fucking unresponsive. Then I got kicked out of the class, and I fucking cried. Now I just feel like total shit. No friends, No girlfriend, No life, and i'm fucking crazy. Should I just go ahead and pull the trigger?

*sigh* you'd think so. But my mind just feels scattered...Like I can't control any of my body functions. It's like my body has been programmed to create the worst life possible for me, yet there was a time when I remember that I was happy once, and I wasn't so hard on myself for failing. I just have no idea how to get back to that sense of happiness, of self-worth. Right now, I feel worthless, and I need to throw myself away.