Name: Anonymous 2007-09-08 8:22 ID:4yWYV9xo
I really wish i had a gun....i am too much of a wimp to do it the other ways...but really...i am 36, out of shape, not well endowed, gay, have not been on a real date in 5 years...quit a high profile job paying a ton of money a year ago because of depression...fell madly in love with one of my best friends--told him that today and he was in shock and walked away--laughing i think...i have $300 left to my name, cant borrow money from my family---the friends i do have all hang out in the same place my friend that i told my love for today--and i cant be around him or i will break down--wow now that i am writing this--it really does make sense--its been a pretty shitty life--some great moments--but mostly a depressing hell hole...i just dont want to hurt my parents--but isnt this more about me ending the pain and wouldnt they want that at some level--i think they know it has not been that fun. ugggghhhhhhhhhhh