Downward Spiral

I'm losing it more and more every day. I've recently been warned that I may get fired from my job. I'm pretty sure that I'm bi-polar. I'm drinking to blackout more often. I think about suicide every day. The only thing stopping me is what it would do to my family and friends. I'm in a state close to tears constantly. I cry for commercials on television, song lyrics, and anything else. If I can't hold it together I will lose everything. I've begun seeing a psychiatrist, and I hope it helps. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm teetering on the edge of a nervous break down.

This thread is so much like my life. Must not let it die.