Name: Anonymous 2007-09-03 0:25 ID:/qKaS4Tz
I am not a paticularly depressed person, neither do I have that kind of nature, although at the moment my self esteem mainly to do with how I look affects me. But anyway I read that to have constant thoughts of suicide is called "suicidal ideation" (something like that). I am not neccessarily contemplating suicide but sometimes it makes sense and whenever I see something that could be potentially dangerous I am always adding it to a list in my head of ways to kill yourself. My best friend died a few years ago and recently she has appeared in my dreams almost every night and sometimes although I dont believe in God or Heaven I always feel like maybe I would see her if I died. Is it a bad sign that I think about suicide so much? I did once attempt it and my parents found out and I had my stomach pumped etc. People often ask me if I'm okay? Like they are concerned, they ask me if I'm happy etc. And no one apart from my parents knows about the suicide attempt. And the therapist said that I wasn't neccessarily suicidal just unhappy. So is it possible I am subconciously suicidal? And if I am I dont understand why, my life is okay, pretty normal etc.