I cant do this alone

I am just a stranger losing my way..............Life seems intent on keeping me isolated tonight ...................I am hurting and i dont know how to escape this darkness is choking me tonight...................i dont want to hurt anybody but it is so so strong right now ..............I am fighting otherwise i would not be writing right now but I dont think i can go do this tonight..................

I’m so fucking desperate, I can almost reach it
Its so close I can stretch my arm out and feel it
I can smell it I can breathe it, but y cant I reach it?

I want to take action, I want to go crazy, but every time I move I crunch up
All I can feel is a small sensation going down my back, just telling me to stop and hold back.

I try to go further but I cant feel a thing, I put all my strength but I feel weak.
Why cant I just take it? What is wrong why cant I do it… the trigger is so close I want to pull it.

(please don't use this poem as your work, thank you)