Don't have what it takes (?)

I feel like I'm never going to be able to have a relationship. I finally work up the courage to ask a girl I had known for a little while if she's interested in me (she was sending all sorts of signals, and it turns out that she was), and then ask her out (she said yes)... and then can't make it, and I collapse like a house of cards and start acting like a little baby. I think I don't trust people with my feelings. Having never had a relationship before or any kind of closeness with a girl makes me think that this is an issue that wouldn't be helped with therapy (I've already been through therapy before for sexual molestation I suffered when I was 9... which is probably why I'm this way in the first place). It's really, really hard for me, and I start obsessing, losing sleep, stressing out etc. I'm a very, very quiet person, and I feel like I've been in denial that maybe I'm a bit more screwed up than I first thought. I think I really start weirding people out with it.
I really need to be close to someone, but I can't get to that point.

hookers. the best thing to ever happen in teh w0rld other ten teh buttsecks

Weirding is cool. In that David Lynch movie it was a weapon of choice. I cried though when the Baron destroyed the weirding modules. Look and act to women that you have "the weirding way". If she's a David Lynch fan, you're in like flynn.