Name: Anonymous 2007-08-29 22:55 ID:04IvzOhg
Okay I am now done with this life. Anyone who knows me knows I've been through more than anyone should ever have to go through but today is what made me decide on this.I was on a site and there was a poll on if I should kill myself.not only that 97% said yes.
No one wants me here anyway why bother staying?Im sick of life everyone thinks there is something wrong with me and their right. i am screwed up. i never was a normal kid.after losing many friends to suicide i became suicidal myself.
I was hardcore. detailed attempts in my bedroom, bathroom, or other public places.i couldnt even do that right. when i talked to my dad about this he told me "dont you dare stain my floor". how nice. from the man who has beaten me in ungodly ways untila few years ago when he realized that i am stronger then him.
The friends i did have here where i live all hate me now and want nothing to do with me. i bring them down. they dont care about me anyway they never did. no one ever did. people say they do but they dont its just so they dont feel guilty if i do it.
My life is a living hell. if i live in hell why fear dying.i know the most common response will be "things will get better". well thats lovely but i dont want to wait another second in this life i hate it so much.now my dad is all better now he is trying to make me happy bygiving me things. doesnt he see i dont want it i dont want any of it
No one wants me here anyway why bother staying?Im sick of life everyone thinks there is something wrong with me and their right. i am screwed up. i never was a normal kid.after losing many friends to suicide i became suicidal myself.
I was hardcore. detailed attempts in my bedroom, bathroom, or other public places.i couldnt even do that right. when i talked to my dad about this he told me "dont you dare stain my floor". how nice. from the man who has beaten me in ungodly ways untila few years ago when he realized that i am stronger then him.
The friends i did have here where i live all hate me now and want nothing to do with me. i bring them down. they dont care about me anyway they never did. no one ever did. people say they do but they dont its just so they dont feel guilty if i do it.
My life is a living hell. if i live in hell why fear dying.i know the most common response will be "things will get better". well thats lovely but i dont want to wait another second in this life i hate it so much.now my dad is all better now he is trying to make me happy bygiving me things. doesnt he see i dont want it i dont want any of it