My life is always awful....

I cant help it, I just want to die... I have no one.... all of my friends are backstabbers except one... and he lies to me a lot and makes me feel bad by the things he does. I hate my body, I'm fat and I hate how much hair I have on my chest and stomach, and its coming in on my back, im only 13... it has driven me into depression and almost to the point of ending it all.

I think I'm jelous of my friend because he's cut and tan and doesn't have any hair on him at all..... (except his head) and hes 14. I cant go to the pool or take my shirt off or anything anywhere I go, I can't go to the beach anymore or dress out in gym... It's hurting me just writing about it. Why is my friend so lucky? now i hate him too....

I dont have any brothers or sisters (well i do but they are older and married) and never have anything to talk to my parents about because they just zone me out. I hardly ever get to talk to my one TRUE friend because hes always in trouble for picking on his twin sister because she has a growth problem. And it makes me mad because he does so bad in school but all he's worried about it buildign his body and muscles and getting tan and all....

He came over yesterday and talked to me and he was changing in front of me and it made me feel so terrible. Then he sat down and started saying how bad he couldnt wait until this summer to go to the pool and show off in front of all the girls and stuff and my heart broke right there.... and i started crying, and I NEVER cry.... especially in front of another guy. So i laid down on the couch and went to sleep. It hurts so bad - i feel so lonely and I cant ever do anythin to have fun, and I hate being jelous of my friend and hating him because he has something good. No matter who i'm friends with its always the same - i get jelous.

I cut myself once, but almost passed out because when i see my own blood it freaks me out. I had a gun 3 times... but that just didnt seem like the right thing to do. I am a churchgoing person and I know that I shouldnt kill myself. But i really need some help because I always want to die for these reasons. please... someone.... anyone.... help.....

>>1
Use violence and logic to solve all your problems.

>>1
Start getting fit now so that your violence is more succesful. Also start contemplating your past, looking for what decision making processes were the most succesful and building apon them and experimenting. Also remember that we all die and you must distance yourself from reality because once it's all over it could be ALL OVER, you need to do start obtaining power over your environment NOW.

my life is a void

>>1
yeah i know what you said, i know what youer tring to say.
but so warming inside her belly...((*´Д`)huh huh..
just remember...huh huh

>>5
If there's one thing I hate in this day and age, it's a faggot. Faggots are shaming men everywhere, and even the men are shaming themselves for not hooking those pillowbiting fuckers up by their ankles to a pick-up truck and taking them for a good old fag drag! I'm sick of seeing light beers! I'm sick of those fucking flat haircuts with the flippy bangs like that faggy elf from the Claymation Bamby movie! I'm sick of Smirnoff Ice and Mike's Hard and Zima! I'm tired of Queer Eye for the Fail Guy, and fairies on reality television shows! I'm tired of Frodo Faggins and vaginal male characters in movies! /b/, it's time to be a man. It's time to be a fucking alpha male once again. Men, do you here the rest of the world? It's laughing at us! It's laughing at America. It's not laughing at us because of Iraq, nor is it laughing at us because of Bush! It's laughing at us because we've got so many GAYS. Yes, GAYS are causing the world to hate America! And who the fuck made it okay to be a metro-sexual? Fuck that indecisive faggot shit you might as well have put on some high heels and bought a handbag if you're gonna say you're metro! If you think there's no shame in being a fag, a pussy, a weakling and a general annoyance, you are wrong.

Don't become an hero

Become an Alpha Male.

Because faggotry is leading to the pussification of man.

just remember your lil girl warming inside...huh huh

>>7
huh?

Homophobes have unbridled homosexual lust. Wearing trucker hats n gettin trucker dome.

Try dieting, exercise, and a full-bodywax.

You also sound like a person who's susceptible to hypnosis, so maybe you can find a therapist who specializes in that, and s/he can help you raise your self-esteem.

On another note, lawl fagdrag. Are you gay or what?

fuck off fag