Name: Anonymous 2007-08-28 20:26 ID:r3hsk8Oq
For some reasons, I have lost my will to live, to survive. I know I cannot continue like this, that I cannot continue to drag myself through everyday. Either I find a way out or I end it.
Some part of me wants to die while the other desperately seeks a way for me to live but I cannot find a way out. I am terribly confused and has comtemplated suicide for a very long time but never had the courage to try it out.
I have nothing to look forward to. The fact that school reopens tomorrow is depressing me even more. I get very depressed on Sundays and Mondays. It has never happened before this year.
My eyes hurt from crying and my head hurts for no reason. I do not have any moral support from the people at home. I feel as if I have been abandoned just because I'm not perfect. While I sit here typing and crying, I don't know what to do.
Trying to explain the problem to my parents will only make them push me harder and tell me that nothing is wrong. That I should block it out and continue my life as if nothing happened. The school counselors cannot be trusted because they have known to leak out secrets. It's as if I've been abandoned on a deserted island.
I've found myself wishing some accident will happen to me so I do not have to decide but it looks like the world is made this way. Those that wish to die does not usually die.
I don't know how to live and I don't know how to die. The most painful thing is being in between. I cannot face tomorrow. Please someone tell me what to do.
Some part of me wants to die while the other desperately seeks a way for me to live but I cannot find a way out. I am terribly confused and has comtemplated suicide for a very long time but never had the courage to try it out.
I have nothing to look forward to. The fact that school reopens tomorrow is depressing me even more. I get very depressed on Sundays and Mondays. It has never happened before this year.
My eyes hurt from crying and my head hurts for no reason. I do not have any moral support from the people at home. I feel as if I have been abandoned just because I'm not perfect. While I sit here typing and crying, I don't know what to do.
Trying to explain the problem to my parents will only make them push me harder and tell me that nothing is wrong. That I should block it out and continue my life as if nothing happened. The school counselors cannot be trusted because they have known to leak out secrets. It's as if I've been abandoned on a deserted island.
I've found myself wishing some accident will happen to me so I do not have to decide but it looks like the world is made this way. Those that wish to die does not usually die.
I don't know how to live and I don't know how to die. The most painful thing is being in between. I cannot face tomorrow. Please someone tell me what to do.