Name: Andrew 2007-08-27 4:03 ID:E/DDXD9f
or the third time I lied to my "girlfriend" that I wasn't looking at porn. Since she only gave me one more chance, now she doesn't love me anymore. She hates me. I feel so horrible. She gave me a chance to win her back, and I looked at porn again. They are just stupid pictures and I just had to look at them. She wants a guy who does not lie and does not look at porn which means she doesn't want me. In only 24 hours we go from saying I love you to each other to this:
*******: my sister is at the arcade
*******: and i think shes lying
Andrew2k54: oooo
Andrew2k54: how is she lying
*******: thanks to you
*******: i can spot a liar a mile away
*******: oh and disgusting worthless humans
Andrew2k54: how is she lying
*******: nevermind
*******: it doesnt concern you
*******: we arent even really friends
*******: so why would i tell you?
Andrew2k54: because i asked about it
*******: so what
*******: you don't matter
xAndrew2k54: okay
Everything around my house reminds me of her. Sitting here reminds me of her. Looking at the stuff in my room reminds me of her. I fell asleep crying last night. I woke up crying.
She's blocked me on Myspace, Facebook, Livejournal, and even on another forum we both go to. She's blocked my email. She's blocked all my screen names. If she wanted to, I wouldn't be able to speak to her at all. She's thrown everything away that I've given her. I asked for some of it back, but she said she would rather throw it away. She deleted gifts I've given her on Facebook. She's removing me from her life.
It's my fault that I lied to her and it's my fault that I look at porn. If I loved her, I wouldn't have looked at porn and lied. I regret it. I can't take it back. She is done with me, but I am still always thinking about her. I don't know what to do. I just want to lie down and die.
*******: my sister is at the arcade
*******: and i think shes lying
Andrew2k54: oooo
Andrew2k54: how is she lying
*******: thanks to you
*******: i can spot a liar a mile away
*******: oh and disgusting worthless humans
Andrew2k54: how is she lying
*******: nevermind
*******: it doesnt concern you
*******: we arent even really friends
*******: so why would i tell you?
Andrew2k54: because i asked about it
*******: so what
*******: you don't matter
xAndrew2k54: okay
Everything around my house reminds me of her. Sitting here reminds me of her. Looking at the stuff in my room reminds me of her. I fell asleep crying last night. I woke up crying.
She's blocked me on Myspace, Facebook, Livejournal, and even on another forum we both go to. She's blocked my email. She's blocked all my screen names. If she wanted to, I wouldn't be able to speak to her at all. She's thrown everything away that I've given her. I asked for some of it back, but she said she would rather throw it away. She deleted gifts I've given her on Facebook. She's removing me from her life.
It's my fault that I lied to her and it's my fault that I look at porn. If I loved her, I wouldn't have looked at porn and lied. I regret it. I can't take it back. She is done with me, but I am still always thinking about her. I don't know what to do. I just want to lie down and die.