shut in!

fuck it Im not gonna try to think of a good way to start this shit

anyways

I wanna be a shut in. Im sick of the worlds shit and Im sick of people walking allover me. I still have a problem how do I stop having people say things to me that I have no way out of? how do I get my mom to let me stay in the basement for a long period of time? im 19 and i live with my mom.
what do I do?

b4 you say it I tried to kill myself and it doesnt work.

>>3
something keeps makes me not able to do it. ive thoguth of alot of things. im no emo i hate bitching but thats why im not gonna bitch here im gonna be honest as i can and accept it as life.I want to be dead because life sucks more than its worth but when i try to kill myself the something keeps me going. maybe its hope.

or maybe i cant be a hero cuz im too weak