shut in!

fuck it Im not gonna try to think of a good way to start this shit

anyways

I wanna be a shut in. Im sick of the worlds shit and Im sick of people walking allover me. I still have a problem how do I stop having people say things to me that I have no way out of? how do I get my mom to let me stay in the basement for a long period of time? im 19 and i live with my mom.
what do I do?

b4 you say it I tried to kill myself and it doesnt work.

>>8 is a nice guy and thank you very much. maybe your different. Ive grown up with anime and manga and i know about the hikki and ota but I dont want to be them. I just want to be alone.

a year ago I had 4 friends. one does nothing but work now another got in a fight over eureka 7 and we dont talk anymore and the others are twins but I see them less and less because the eureka kid iss pulling them away and one of them has a girlfriend thats making him depressed and angry.

Ive tried up untill 8th grade to be soccially normal and it didnt ever work so I gave up. in sophmoreyear I was awoken to the fact that most women are into drugs and sex and I can never be happy with one. and recently Im seeing how many people are just plain evil and how good people gut pushed under everyone who has a stronger will or a bigger ego.

I want to be able to stay inside and just stare at a screen and sleep till i pass away. I know there is someone here reading this who knows how to help(after all this is 4chan).I just wish I could explain how much better eternal rest would be compared to trying to be normal.

someone please help me!