The feeling where you'll do anything to feel the inside of a vagina again.
If you had sex with a condom the first time, then you'll always be wondering what you're missing. Sex will become less and less fulfilling until you find yourself throat fucking your partner in her sleep.
You'll wake up every morning sweaty, and mad. Death will seem like a relief, but killing other people will seem like a bigger one.
It all ends in Italy, after a trans continental fest of AIDS and daeth. Your last victim will be named Sophia. She'll have long brown hair, and beautiful brown eyes. You'll take these as trophies after killing her, and slipping into sweet death yourself.