Balls in my throat

I am honestly in tears right now. I really need someones help but I can't go to anyone so please don't flame this thread up. I don't go out much and my parents for the past few years have been yelling at me for staying in my room on the computer all day. Day after day I would get yelled out to get out of the house and go do things. As the years went on they would get more and more agressive and really started kicking me out of the house at times.

An hour ago they brought some crack into my room and almost forced me to smoke it. They said that I need to quit being a 12 year old and that I'm 19 now and I need to quit being a hermit and do stuff like this.

I've honestly never seen them like this and they are threatening to kick me out of my house into the streets for good if I don't smoke crack. I've never drank, smoked or done anything and I am honestly shaking right now with fear they might come into my room any minute with the crack again.

I am honestly in tears right now what should I do ST. I'm shaking and I have never been more scared, but the thing is I don't want to call anyone cause I don't want them to be arrested. I honestly can't live without my parents but at the same time right now I can't live with them. I can't smoke crack, I just can't force myself to do it and it scares me my parents are acting like this. What should I do?











And the thing is if they kick me out into the streets I have no where to go. I will always be a victim of the streets. And Ilive in San francisco I can not be kicked into the strets cause Iwill die of gayrape and aids
famousamoscoocies is offline      

Is this an actual problem? The last three lines seem to say otherwise, like you're kidding. But I'll give advice anyway.

Your parents are trying to force you to smoke crack? You're an adult and they're trying to force you to do something. Even if you're living in their house that's probably an arrestable offense. If you really don't want them to be arrested then maybe you should talk with them about counseling. But it depends on how addicted you are to computing. You need to go into a little more detail about that. Or, you could move in with another relative that WON'T force drugs on you and will accept you.

If all else fails, just do what they say: try going out more, they will probably stop acting like faggots and let you live your life. But if computing is your life, go for it. It's a fast growing career.

I've given you a fair variety of options, I hope you were being serious when you wrote this and if so, update us on what happens.