Name: Anonymous 2007-07-24 12:45 ID:igAa7D1A
Over the past year I've been trying to lie to myself, to think on something else, even got laid and tried to fall in love with other girls, anything but admitting what I, deep down inside, already knew.
I love myself. Not in the way most people love themselves, but in the way a man loves a man. Not because of some silly fetish either; when I say love, I mean real, "I'll go to the end of the world for you" love.
I am only 26 years old, and currently doesn't have a girlfriend. I'm pretty, at least to my eyes, but this is not fueling this. It's my personality. I like no other women this much. I always had a lot of chemistry, it's as if I am engineered to be together with myself. I'm sure if I had been cloned, we would be the happiest couple in the world right now.
Lately, I realized I could not give up on this, but I'm kind of scared. I know this is fucked up. But I don't know what to do. I've been avoiding fapping for a couple of weeks, and this is causing me suffering, which in turn breaks my heart. I don't know if I should confess my love and face the consequences of experiencing a kind of love that's considered unacceptable in our society, even from myself, or just let it pass and die inside.
Help me /lounge/, what should I do? I think I may be feeling something similar for me because I am very close and I consider me attractive, but I don't know to what extent this may only be wishful thinking on my part. Knowing me, I'm sure I won't be angry at me if I tell me how I feel, but I don't know for sure if I'll feel the same about me. I'm positive our family and community will oppose such love, but if I love me, I'm willing to face all of them or move to some other country to start a new life with me. But I wouldn't want to put pressure on me or make me feel uneasy, so while I think I should confess, I'm not 100% sure and I don't know to what extent what I think is distorted by my strong affection for me.
I love myself. Not in the way most people love themselves, but in the way a man loves a man. Not because of some silly fetish either; when I say love, I mean real, "I'll go to the end of the world for you" love.
I am only 26 years old, and currently doesn't have a girlfriend. I'm pretty, at least to my eyes, but this is not fueling this. It's my personality. I like no other women this much. I always had a lot of chemistry, it's as if I am engineered to be together with myself. I'm sure if I had been cloned, we would be the happiest couple in the world right now.
Lately, I realized I could not give up on this, but I'm kind of scared. I know this is fucked up. But I don't know what to do. I've been avoiding fapping for a couple of weeks, and this is causing me suffering, which in turn breaks my heart. I don't know if I should confess my love and face the consequences of experiencing a kind of love that's considered unacceptable in our society, even from myself, or just let it pass and die inside.
Help me /lounge/, what should I do? I think I may be feeling something similar for me because I am very close and I consider me attractive, but I don't know to what extent this may only be wishful thinking on my part. Knowing me, I'm sure I won't be angry at me if I tell me how I feel, but I don't know for sure if I'll feel the same about me. I'm positive our family and community will oppose such love, but if I love me, I'm willing to face all of them or move to some other country to start a new life with me. But I wouldn't want to put pressure on me or make me feel uneasy, so while I think I should confess, I'm not 100% sure and I don't know to what extent what I think is distorted by my strong affection for me.