obsessed with rapist

I was raped about 14 years ago and having been living with the pain since. I recently saw my rapist and now I can't stop thinking about him. I want to find him to try and seduce him. Why? Is this normal? Am I crazy. He was someone I knew before the rape. It was date rape. I am married. I want to talk to my husband about it but am affraid how he will react.

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Tell your husband to play rapist for you, you'll love it and forget about the stupid rapist. Fucking an idiot and cheating on your husband just because you have a rape fetish is not worth breaking a marriage.