Name: Anonymous 2007-07-01 8:53 ID:dop0oTe7
I am a 27 year old man, never had a girlfriend in my life, and have never had an intimate encounter of anykind. I just don't know how to do this...
I am afraid that I am in the percentage of people who will never, ever be able to find love because of physical flaws that I may or may not have. First of all, I am short. I have been told many times that women don't like short men. I don't know if it's true, but I am beginning to believe it more and more...
I try to keep myself in shape...a lot of the times I forget to eat and may be too thin (I realized this a year ago when I tried to buy pants and they weren't selling 28 waists anymore...I have been battling eating disorder on and off for at least 10 years now). I have been in CBT for a while, but I don't know if it is going to take.
Looking at the prospect of a lifetime alone is awfully hard for me, but so is going out and meeting people. I just believe that I am so physically flawed that people will dismiss me, and I honestly believe that I am just not good enough as a person to meet the standard of relationship material.
I am reaching the end of my rope. One time a friend told me "you can always just pay for sex", but I don't want to do that. It isn't even about sex. It's about living this same life every day until my dying days...sitting in my apartment alone and working or playing the piano long hours to distract myself from feelings of worthlessness. I am just so exhausted from depression, and just so, so sad...
I am afraid that I am in the percentage of people who will never, ever be able to find love because of physical flaws that I may or may not have. First of all, I am short. I have been told many times that women don't like short men. I don't know if it's true, but I am beginning to believe it more and more...
I try to keep myself in shape...a lot of the times I forget to eat and may be too thin (I realized this a year ago when I tried to buy pants and they weren't selling 28 waists anymore...I have been battling eating disorder on and off for at least 10 years now). I have been in CBT for a while, but I don't know if it is going to take.
Looking at the prospect of a lifetime alone is awfully hard for me, but so is going out and meeting people. I just believe that I am so physically flawed that people will dismiss me, and I honestly believe that I am just not good enough as a person to meet the standard of relationship material.
I am reaching the end of my rope. One time a friend told me "you can always just pay for sex", but I don't want to do that. It isn't even about sex. It's about living this same life every day until my dying days...sitting in my apartment alone and working or playing the piano long hours to distract myself from feelings of worthlessness. I am just so exhausted from depression, and just so, so sad...