I Need to Change

I am 15 1/2 years old and just completed my freshmen year of high school. It was pretty average. I hated the beginning of it, but I became a lot happier towards the end. I have good grades, am probably the best freshmen volleyball player, have a good amount of friends, and would consider myself good-looking. I still, though, have never had a girlfriend and have only really kissed one girl. But I didn't really care because at the end of school, I was probably one of the happiest of those around me. I was improving my personality, my looks, and the amount of people I talked to.

Then summer came around...

I thought summer was going to be a blast, but instead I sat around and did nothing for the first week-no socializing or improvement-just sitting playing video games. This started a chain reaction. I have to try really hard to do anything. My mom just started chemo for her cancer so she can't drive. I do nothing. I haven't even tried achieving the goals I set out to complete-learning the guitar, meeting knew people, improving myself. I just sit around playing on my computer feeling like crap. I'm insecure, lazy, and feel like no girls will ever be attracted to me (even though I'm actually semi-good looking so my personality must suck)

Mainly this post is just me venting my frustration. I have a volleyball tournament this weekend and I'm hoping to start over afterwards. I'm going to try to stop playing as much video games-even quitting all together, and completing the goals that I set out to achieve (I'm making a list)

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SAGE