suicidal thoughts

They hit me hard all of a sudden out of NOwhere about half an hour ago. So, I talked to someone I hadn't talked to in a long time and tried to 'catch up' to distract myself.
Please give me some more ideas on what to do.
Thank you.

Look, the reason you have suicidal thoughts in the first place is because of the actions you took in the past. If you realize this, then what would be the way to get those thoughts out? Do the things you know you should not do. That'll liven up your spirit, afterall, isn't variety the spice of life? Some people like to eat only salt, only pepper, only cinnamon, only basel, only paprika, only ginger, but what are they all missing? The fucking meal! That's why they get this craving cause they're fucking starving themselves intellectually and physically! WTF? I guess agoraphobia is a hot seller and highly contageious. If you want a meal, start out with scraps and work your way up to steak and lobster...if that's what you want to work your way up to anyway. The choice is always up to you, but the action is the most important step.
So, either get a life by doing the small things to get what you want regardless of how fucking long and drawn out it may be or get a weapon, hop in a trash bin, kill yourself and the trash will take care of itself. If you really want to be respectful about it, leave a fucking note and make sure you get a sealable biohazardous bag for your body, that shit is dangerous. Best of luck to ya, whatever your choice, fella.