Seriously considering suicide.......

I've been in a really bad situation lately. I've fallen into a deep depression. i've been drinking heavily. I'm to the point where I just don't care anymore. i don't know how yet but i'm going to do it. I got in an accident this weekend. I have an insurance claim now. I recently lost my job that I worked so hard at. I've been trying to support my sick dad and little sisters, but I just can't do it. I had to drop all my college classes because I just couldn't keep up and work full time. I can't go on living this way. Somewhere along the line everything just went wrong.  It all started when I lost my mother, no love for myself and no love for another, searching to find a love up on a higher level, finding nothing but questions and devils.  Cuz Im losing my sight, losing my mind, wish somebody would tell me in fine. Losing my sight losing my mind.. Cut my life into pieces this is my last resort suffocation no breathing, dont give a **** if I cut my arm bleeding, would it be wrong would it be right if I took my life tonight
chances are that I might. Nothings alright, nothing is fine. I'm runnin and Im crying...  I'm cryingg I'm crryyingg...

Is this a song lyric or did you make up that stuff yourself? Are you interested in poetry or some shit?

Even before I got half way through I knew you were full of shit.

Anyone else considering the following?

No?  Good, because DO NOT ASK FOR HELP HERE.

Psssh... either this is BS or you are just ridiculously stupid and need to die anyway so you don't pass on your genes cause who the fuck asks for help here?