Help /lounge, I love my sister

Over the past year I've been trying to lie to myself, to think on something else, even got laid and tried to fall in love with other girls, anything but admitting what I, deep down inside, already knew.

I love my sister. Not in the way most brothers love their sisters, but in the way a man loves a woman. Not because of some silly fetish either; when I say love, I mean real, "I'll go to the end of the world for you" love.

My sister is only one year younger than me, making her 20, and currently doesn't have a boyfriend. She's pretty, at least to my eyes, but this is not fueling this. It's her personality. I like no other girl this much. We always had a lot of chemistry,  it's as if we were engineered to be together. Only we happened to share our parents. I'm sure if we had been born in different families, we would be the happiest couple in the world right now.

Lately, I realized I could not give up on this, but I'm kind of scared. I know this is fucked up. But I don't know what to do. I've been avoiding her for a couple of weeks, and this is causing her suffering, which in turn breaks my heart. I don't know if I should confess my love and face the consequences of experiencing a kind of love that's considered unacceptable in our society, even from her, or just let it pass and die inside.

Help me /lounge, what should I do? I think she may be feeling something similar for me becuase we are very close and she considers me attractive, but I don't know to what extent this may only be wishful thinking on my part. Knowing her, I'm sure she won't be angry at me if I tell her how I feel, but I don't know for sure if she'll feel the same about me. I'm positive our parents and everybody else in our family and community will oppose such love, but if she loves me, I'm willing to face all of them or move to some other country to start a new life with her. But I wouldn't want to put pressure on her or make her feel uneasy, so while I think I should confess, I'm not 100% sure and I don't know to what extent what I think is distorted by my strong affection for her.

FUCK YOU.

Reading this really got to me... I mean, i knew it was too good to be true at first, but I really wanted to believe it...so muchthat i eventually worked up the courage to tell my sister my own feelings...Oh god, it was so painful. She thought I was joking at first, god, it would still be hard for me if I would have left it at that, but comparitively it would be bliss...I said no, I'm serious, I love you. I took her by the shoulders...I just wanted to look in her eyes, her beautiful eyes...she got scared and let out a scream...I didn't know what to do, I guess I got scared too, so I cuped a hand over her m outh. I realise this was dumb now, she just got more scared, and she started struggling to get free...I didnt know what else to do, I just wanted her to calm down so I could talk to her, I hugged her so close, put my arm around her head and the other on my mouth...she's crying now...she started to buck harder, and I squeezed harder, then it happened

Snap. It was so simple, not like in the movies or anything, just  a buck in the wrong direction, and snap...she stopped fidgeting, and lay still in my arms...I thought, this is just so peacful, you know? Why couldn't it be like this...but no, she was dead...I didn't know what to do, I knew I did a real bad thing...I couldn't think about it, though, because my brother George started to call from inside the house, was everything alright. He must have heard the snap...I got scared, and ran off into the woods...just as I leave the property I turn around and see the front door open, i hear my mother scream...I done a bad thing, George, they won't forgive me...