Issues

First girlfriend dumped me two years ago for another guy.  It crushed me... but she still wanted to talk to me and keep in touch, but it was very hurtful.  She'd log off whenever her newbie boyfriend came through the door "I have to go now" at the drop of a hat.  After a while, I actively avoided talking to her.  No goodbyes... I switched my AIM address, switched the e-mail, moved, cut off the livejournal... really all just for her.  Two years pass...  things drift along.  I never really got over it.  I just recently started talking to her again.  I don't know, man, I still love her.  Pathetic, ey?  Should I move on, should I act like a normal 19 year old and actively seek new pussy every night?  grah.

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First, lol @ interweb relationships (even though I've met a few awesome girls that way, it's still funny).

Second, um, dude, if a person, guy or girl dumps you flat on your ass and doesn't care about you, I mean come on. Wake up. Get ahold of yourself. People who treat you like shit are worth shit. Your feelings don't matter. Otherwise it would be right to think that black people should be slaves just because it feels right to me.

If you can't use your head to rationally think through the problem and you rely on how you feel instead you're a fool. Feelings are awkward, annoying, sometimes horribly painful and other times totally awesome when they're in the right place.

If you know they exist but actively choose not to give them any power they'll finally go away. If you give them importance that's how they stay for so long. Or if you pretend like they don't exist you never work through them.

See, there's one or two girls I still have feelings for to this day, but I just think back to when times were good. She and I were happy. If it ended badly, oh well, [sh]it happens. As long as she's doing good now, I'm glad for her. But if someone wants to harass me, or show off in front of me I go the other way. They aren't worth my time.