Name: Anonymous 2006-05-07 2:02
(and i'm 19 years old btw)
I just finished watching THE FOX AND THE HOUND for the first time by myself and... wow... just wow. I am totally speechless. I have never felt so much raw emotions from a movie before. I had tears in my eyes throughout several parts of the movie. It's just so sad. But not just sad for Todd the Fox, I also felt happy for him. I was sad when he left Copper and the Old Lady, but a happiness for his relationship with the very cute girl fox: Vixey.
Now I know most other people who watch the movie may cry and feel sad for the friendship with Todd the fox, the Old Lady, and Copper, but some of my DEEPER feelings are a little... different. There is something else I feel left VERY DEEP IN MYSELF after watching this movie: a very strong sadness and depression. Towards the end of the movie during several moments when Todd and Vixey are together, everything seems perfect for them, they are happy together, they are cuddling together, they would start a family together, and they are in love. But it also makes me feel a strange JEALOUSLY for Todd the fox.
Now... WTF? Why do I feel this? Why am I 'JEALOUS' of the relationship of Todd and Vixey? I admit they are both very cute foxes and absolutely perfect together... but after these scenes and after the movie, I just feel like my total life is now just LOST, TERRIBLE, WASTED AND DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE, AND ALL I WANT TO DO IS TRANSFORM INTO THE LIFE OF TODD. ALL I WANT IS TO BE TODD. I WANT TO BE IN HIS LIFE. I WANT TO LIVE IT ALL. I WOULD GIVE UP MY LIFE TO LIVE HIS.
I AM DEAD SERIOUS.
This isn't the only time I've felt this urge. I remember years ago when I was young and saw 'THE LION KING' for the first time, AND I CAN REMEMBER FEELING THE SAME WAY AS I AM NOW. I couldn't stop crying that night and I was more depressed than I had ever been, ever. My parents were really getting worried about what was wrong with me. I could no longer concentrate and didn't care about anything in life from that day on. I was... scared. But as I got older it became less and less of an urge with all my new hobbies and interests, and now that I am a mature adult, I see things differently than I used to with life and cartoons, and now that I have become very familiar with sex stuff, porn stuff, and furry stuff. But I guess that hasn't cured me at all, or maybe the furry stuff made me worse, I really dont know.
BUT NOW IT IS HAPPENING TO ME AGAIN, AND I JUST FEEL SO TERRIBLE RIGHT NOW. I JUST WANT TO END MY NIGHTMARE LIFE SO I CAN LIVE TODD'S LIFE. (OH AND THANK YOU SO MUCH WALT DISNEY)
4CHAN, YOU ARE THE GREATEST, MOST VALUABLE PLACE IN THE WORLD TO ME. PLEASE HELP ME. PLEASE.