Oh god the blood

Help me /lounge/, I've begun to cut. I don't know why really. Nothing is really that wrong with my life. I have friends and family that love me, I play sports, I'm in the band, I do after school activities and I even have a decent girlfriend. Everything seems like it should be fantastic. Things should be looking forward, I'm taking advanced classes, but for some reason there is something missing. I fill that feeling with cutting. It's insane.

The pain just feels so good, though. I can revel in it, the blood gets me going. It fills me with utter joy. I never feel so invigorated as when I am bleeding from my wrists. I don't do it to kill myself. I only cut across, as opposed to down, so that I can still feel it. Noone knows I do this, and I don't know what would happen if they found out.

Your estrogen levels are too high, thus you feel your brain is confused and thinks it must feel the pain of menstruation and that your body must bleed. These unsatisfied desires bubble up from the lover levels of your brain to the higher levels where they manifest as pleasure induced by pain and bleeding !