Help! I only like Asians!

Hi,

I'm a black, American otaku.

I've been watching anime since middle school, and since I didn't really even start considering girls in "that way" until after that, it was only natural that I fell for asians, what with anime, manga, and the types of sites I hang out at.

Though the truth is, I didn't even notice it until recently. (I'm in college now.) The fact that, although I can interact with any race normally with any day to day event (classmates, co-workers, etc,) I can only fall for Asians.

I mean, 6 out of 10 women around my age in Asian pictures(porn or otherwise) that I see online, I think I would consider going out with if I met them in real life (if they wern't a porn star, if applicable!).

Wherein with Caucasians, it's less than 1/50. (and black even less than that.  I don't know, they usually seem sort of nasty, and I don't like loud women...) 

With Hispanics and other non-black/Caucasian women it's usually higher than with Caucasians, but still less than with Asians. (Personally, it's probably becuase I consider Asians so freaking cute a lot of the time, and I *prefer* cute women.  The "hot" ones usually look slutty to me.  But again, probably the influence of anime and American anime culture.)

Anyway, I see this as a problem since, most likely, I probably won't move to Asia (yep, I'm realistic,) and I don't want to have a fetish for/be racist against certain kind of women.

Do you think this is a fetish?  Do you think I'm racist?  Do you agree with me? Do you think this just a perfectly normal preference?  Any suggestions?

Actually, come to think of it, my whole "preference" may have just developed from when I was younger.

Back when I started middle school, (Before I was into anime or anything of the sort,) I was shier than I am now, having been home-schooled for all the years prior.

Quite a few girls hit on me, crushed on me, and even asked me out over those two years.(Mostly by black grils, of course.)  However, I didn't like loud girls like them!  ...So I ended up just ignoring the subject whenever they brought it up.  (And in the case of one girl who was extremely strong about it, so much that I couldn't even think of what to say, ignoring her completely.  I remember her going up to the teacher in front of the whole class and saying "Mr. XXX!  XXXX won't talk to me, and he talks to everyone else, especially the guys!"  ...Then there was the time that one of them asked me if I was a virgin, and I said no since I thought it was a form of Christianity.  ...haha, children.)


Well anyway, somewhere during my second year there I ran, and was chosen for, student body.  My friends wanted me to run for School President as well, but that was a bit too much for me.  The girl who ended being elected as school president (and the only real compitition I would've had :p) was a shy Asian girl. 
As the year went on, I slow grew to crush on her, but never really said anything.

A weeks before school ended, yearbooks came out.  It was then that she asked me to sign her yearbook, and asked to sign mine!  It was odd, since I didn't consider myself someone that she really knew, but she had commented that she had had a crush on me as well. 

Afterwards, we went to different high schools so I never saw her again... and only thought about it a few times after that. 

(And oddly enough, it was some Chinese friends of mine in right grade that had *really* introduced me to anime and manga.  They were pretty damn good manga-style artists, and I pretty much got interested in the style.  After a while, I learned to draw pretty good too.  But that habit was thrown out the window after freshmen year of high school, and my drawing's pretty much crap now.)


...So anyway, that's most likely how I got like this. :p


All this reminiscing is making me feel like an old man... I have to go pluck out my grey hairs.