>That feel when you have passed many years thinking you were mentally retarded, over-analyzing each single thing you do,spotting each single flaws you have and still never manage to fix any of them. That freaking feel when you have smoked so much weed in your youth you started earing voices and shit, started believing there was microphones hidden in your bedroom, and that few months later you start thinking you might be becoming psychotic, schizophrenic or some shit, but never find the guts to see a shrink because you fear that being on druged on AD might prevent you from (successfully) killing yourself one day, and then times go by and you dont hear any freaking voice anymore, and you kind of regret it because the idea of being psychotic was recomforting, it was giving you a reason for being such a freaking retard, but no, you are not a retard, you are just an horrible person. its like there just two persons in your own body, you and him, him being your ideal self, that hate every single fucking thing about you, all your flaws, all your default, the way you speak, the way you talk, the way you walk, the way you act, the way you think, but he can't manage to fix you even if you wish he took control for good, and you still wish you were crazy or something for being such a bad person, but you won't ever be, and you still have to go through all this shit, and your just about to fail your semester and you don't even give a fuck anymore, you want to die, but youre a frog so your a pussy by default.