otaku vs nerd

im sick of people saying im otaku. I insist i am just a anime game nerd but they insist im otaku.help me prove this to them.

what are the differences between otaku and nerd when both are into anime and games. please explain why you think soo.

im gonna be honest and say what I think.

I have never fit into a group no mater how hard i tried. I allways seemed to be an outcast.when i fist heard the word otaku i heard it defined as"a person who likes anime and manga" (and i was allready obsessed) which i now know to be completely false. but then because of it i felt like i belonged in the group and it made me happy.

this was years ago but now as the definition for me becomes more like me I became spitefull of the word. whenever i hear otaku all I can think of it how im a fucking loli pedo and i will never find happyness outside of my animation.

but then theres the fact that im american. according to 4chan we dont have the materials and social stress that the japanese have that causes otaku. plus i still try my best to be a socialy normal person(sometimes).

this word kills me because i dont know if i like it or hate it If i am or If i am not. the word is kinda static aswell. theres the well to do genshiken people and the fucked up hikkikomori people so how do I know which is really otaku and which isnt?

but even the japanese people see the word otaku like americans see the word nerd. there are the trekkies who go out drink and party and there are the uber nerds who sit inside all day trying to compre star wars to star treck.

I really want to know where I am on the list. people have yelled at me at the arcade for loving moe and Ive had japanese people say otaku are not in existance outside of japan. theres rumors about me being a pedophile at my school(college) but the there are people who talk to me to be nice.

how do I know what I am. I want to have a word to describe myself but at the sametime I wish i didnt need one. otaku is closer to anything else that I am really but does that really make me one. I cant be Im white american but im soo dedicated to this genre of animation its become my life.

this is soo pointless for me to type on tis thing like its my damn journal. WTF im clicking reply!